"Heavy is the sorrow that bows the head, when hope is alive but love is dead."

i guess i HAVE been emo-ing lately.

i question myself again and again. why am i lyk this? i have wonderful friends. i have a family which is thankfully leaving me in peace for now. i am still able to cope with my studies. im fine with my cca. why?why??

i can't help these feelings sometimes. lyk im totally helpless or something. this strange feeling of loneliness. it's not lyk i lack the company to hang out with, or the attention, but sometimes i can't help but think of you. how it had been. how it could be now. how it bloody freaking would have been.

and sometimes i just get so confused. i wonder if everything i thought had been was just a pure case of my own assumptions and delusions. whether anything said was meant. i cant help thinking abt so many things at once, im losing my mind.

it gets so bad, even in school where my thoughts will just drift off during my lessons or simply when im alone. i cant help but let my thoughts wander..

i'm tired.. really..